My choice over a boy

When i think about my past
i always feel so bad
wondering what it would of been
if i hadn't of dumped everything i had

i threw away my friends
& my boy, when it was working out
for another boy instead
& sometimes i still have doubts

what would it of been like??
would i not be crying everyday
because before all this happened
i never regretted choices i made

my wrists went always cut
and when they were i knew he cared
he'd sit down and talk with me
& tell me its something he cant bare

he hated seeing me upset
and kissed my pain to a smile
but because i left him for someone else
it only lasted for a little while

the one that i chose that i have
i love him more than the world
but maybe hes doesn't know
how to look after a sad girl

& as i sit here staring down
i wonder what i would be
if id have scars on my wrists from long ago
and not fresh cuts from being lonely

copywrite Leah Tilley