Blood, Sweat, and Tears

I'm nothing but a
dark hole, something
unwanted, something
to not be shown.

I'm just another messy
girl, trying to get threw
life, living in this complex
world.

The blade cross my
wrist too many times,
the mirrors have shattered
every time I look into
this lie

The storms of a child's
cries, never seem to
work out, nobody
helps, as I shout.

Blood* from my heart
comes out my skin,
a soulless girl thinking
I would have to end.

My eyes don't shine
like they use to, my
smile doesn't show,
why do I try to make
people see me,
I seem so low.

I sweat* to try to make
my life easy, but no won
cares, I try to talk, but
to speak i must dare.

My life just can't get
any worse, every one
hates me, my heart
has finally been burst.

Tears* run down my face,
my bed soaked, they run
so fast, its as if they're
in a race.

Trash-talking is thrown at
me, as if i don't exist,
please don't make me
cry again, i hate suffering
in this mess.

I hate the way I am,
nobody cares for me,
I'm nothing but an
ignored image,
but you don't care,
you don't see me!

Blood, sweat, and tears,
I have to fight this nightmare,
even if it takes me years.

Heaven don't want me,
cause they don't allow
dirt, hell i don't belong
I didn't do anything wrong
I just had been hurt.

Finally my last good-bye,
to all who may have
never hated me,
but I'm just a failure, all
i ever do is cry.

Once again, the knife
can end, the blood that
comes from my wrist,
the sweat for trying,
the tears I'll drown in
while I'm dying.........

*This is not me now I'm a very happy person just an old poem how i used to be just comment and tel me what you think.