Have you been truly in love?
as far as I'm concerned,
i don't know.
to all the men that came
and had gone from my life,
I've felt the same feelings,
the same emotions,
and the same thoughts.
i want to be near them,
touch them,and most of all...
caress them.
But!
there is this void an emptiness
in my heart .
it is though i am longing
for something,in which
i could not find..
Until..
i met you,you filled my life
and my longing.
it is though I've renewed and
reborn.
the feeling is strange,
something that I've never knew existed.
it engulfed my being and
took me in its embrace.
it is warm,yet cold;bland yet mysterious.
i am not prepared for this and it frightened me,
i struggled furiously at first.
fighting it.
trying to negate it.
but all in vain,it held on like a clamp,a vise that gripped my heart and i lost.
gave in to it,gave up the struggle.
and now...
i know that i am in love.
in love with someone whom
i do not know if hes in love with me.
if he shares the same feelings.
alas..
the price to pay for being
in love is the fact That
you are not in the same plane.
the fact that he does not love me.
and then comes....
the heartaches,the miseries,
the woes,and sorrows.
it may kill?
yes...if you are not strong enough to endure it.
and i might just say this for myself,
i may not be strong enough.
and i am now slowly.....
breaking down.
