Confused thoughts of love

The one time i actually let go
allow myself to feel
trust him with everything
i find out it wasn't real

he cheated on me
hurt me real bad
bruised my self confidence
and left me sad

i vowed to never love again
i hid my heart from what was true
but you somehow slipped through
and i fell , i fell hard for you

as i slipped further into us
i lost myself and i let go
but i just got hurt
it just goes to show

love equals pain and more
I'm not supposed to be
a happy care free girl
treated with delicacy

you used words that got me hooked
touched me and broke me
cared for me and lied
now i don't know what we can be

i cant trust you , don't know why
i feel your pretending
cheating on me with another
the msg's your not sending

just be honest with me
tell me the truth i plea
i need to know , i cant stand lies
i broken cant you see

i need you so bad
but i cant stand this hurt
don't want to be left broken hearted
picking up the pieces from the dirt

I'm alone, pretending , crying
just to keep us alive
because I'm scared of life alone
but in it I'm dying