What is real anymore?
Are these feelings that I try to ignore?
What about these thoughts inside my brain?
Or how about why I feel this pain?
Why must loving you hurt so bad?
Why does everything I say make you mad?
I want to be consumed by my deluded reality
One where I never have to worry
And days are filled with happy thoughts
Where people mean it when they say “I love you lotsâ€
And where I feel that I belong
And I’m never accused of being wrong
In this reality, there is you and me
And we can exist together in harmony
We laugh and we love each other
Always enjoying the company of one another
We grow closer and have a future as one
Doesn’t my reality sound fun?
Everyone has their own sense of reality
So I decided, why not me?
People hide behind what they want to believe
Afraid of others who deceive
They see what they want and ignore what they don’t
One day these realities vanish, but mine won’t
I’d rather live in my deluded reality
Then to accept what is going to be
I want you here with me, always
To spend together the rest of our days
So if that’s not possible, then I ask
That you allow me to live behind my mask
What is real anymore?
How about the truth that I wish to ignore?
What about the pain I feel inside?
Or these thoughts that I have to hide?
I don’t know why loving you hurts so bad...
Or why everything I say makes you mad...
