A Different Kind of Pain

I dont want to be alone
dont leave me
i cannot be forsaken
please stay
a pleading
a begging
trying
weary of my own tear shedding
feeding my happiness to the darkness
a pill for every hurt
but i would end up dying
trapped in the captivity of my lonsome fate
my lonesome journey
faced to face it alone
i stand alone
slowly dying in my own agony of pain and long suffering
hoping to be relieved but only to be in pain once again
i spring forth in an embrace that was so fake
thought it was so real
thought i kept faith in something that i could feel
a love i thought was there
never had been
a pain i feel
a sanity that is questionable
flooding of my own tears
i knew i could get used to the pain
but this is a different kind of pain
inside me
burning from the in to out
decadance happning over and over again
almost ripping my stomach apart
bursting into oblivion
a trust that was torn apart
destroyed
cast away into the void of forgetfulness
my whole life
my whole heart
being covered by this corrosion and stain
never getting used to this hurt
because
its a different kind of pain

by CoLliN