Why...?

I think and wonder
each and everday
whether i should go or stay

My pain is too strong
i can't deal with it
i should give up and quit

they say that i'm perfect
but they dont ever see
the person you think isnt really me

You're so gorgeous
over and over the say
but "please let me die" is what i pray

I'm falling apart
i cry myself to sleep
but they dont ever hear me weep