Why cant it be easier?

What happened?
it used to be easier
like taking a picture
or learning to do art
or going swimming

but everything is so hard now
i cant even be friends
with my ex boyfriend
without something going wrong
everything is twisted and untrue

i don't get it
why must people lie about
something they know will
never wont happen
I'm going to scream soon

sometimes i wonder
would anyone miss me when I'm gone?
or would they lie and said they did?
would people stop talking about me?
or would they find something
about me to talk about?

sometimes i do things
i know that i shouldn't
but i cant stop
I'm addicted to it
just the rush alone is thrilling

i feel like everything is fading
like everything is slowly moving away
soon there will be nothing left
but me in a very dark corner
as i sit and weep cause everything is gone

I'm not sitting in my dark corner
I'm making marks all over my wrist
no one notices what I'm doing
there beginning to fading slowly
I'm all alone now as i sit and make marks

oops, look what i just did
i went to deep
but no one notices
no one is here
everyone is gone

now I'm slowly fading
but in a different way
i begin to weaken
to slowly slip into hell
where ill rest forever

this is now my farewell
to anyone that cares
to anyone that noticed i was dying
to anyone that realized things were to hard
this is now my farewell to you