No Change

My tears no longer matter
There's no one who cares enough
People say they pity me
That living like me is tough

But it's hard to understand them
Because I've never seen their side
They all seem so happy
An emotion I've learned to hide

School is an escape
From a life of pain and hell
At school I have a choice
The truth or that I fell

I wonder about others
Are they in a life like me
Or are they in a place
Where they truly feel free

I pay for these wonders
Mother thinks I'm wrong
She punishes me for those thoughts
And as I'm beat they're gone

Again I lie to the friends I have
I guess I just can't tell the truth
Because even though I know
I have no real proof

Years go by and as I look back
I still remember the pain
And even though it's hard to think
I've never wished for things to change

© Mia Bartlemay, Aug. 16, 2006