Without a spark

Im too depressed to go on
the love was there
but now its gone
i did have trust till it flew away
now thats those are gone
my words just say \\\"help\\\"
i want the love
i want the pain
i want those words that everyone longs to say...I love you...
i truly do but now that your gone
all i am is blue.
i cry every day
i ware fake smiles and pretend to say im fine....
but really my mind is not a straight line ...and now i sit alone in the dark
without a word
without a spark