Fate?

Telling how i really feel, would mean that now he knows now how weak i actually am. I could cry and i am sure that he would handle that better than he handled the conversation the other night.

I think i made a really big mistake, and of course i couldn't keep my big mouth closed, i had to bring up how i really felt toward what he does and now i feel as if he doesn't want to talk to me anymore.

Always wants to stay friends but now it seems as if it would be better had he not ever talked to me. The famous words were spoken and now he thinks i am backing out of this relationship what ever it is.

I don't want to back out, but i am so young, maybe he doesn't really want me anymore. As i told him last night i am always getting hurt i should be use to it by now but nope each time always hurts worse than the one before.

I could cry and it would hurt him less, than to take back those words i had said, so if he cant forgive me then i guess really in the end we weren't really meant to be. Fate of course is always cruel to me.