To Die

I stop today
when I realize
how wrong
I really am

as I think that I'm not more
than something stupid
something funny
to you

How wrong I really am
when I talk to you
and feel like you're stronger
even though I love you so

As I talk to you
and feel neglected, unappreciated
even tough sometimes you're proud
of the things I do

Now is this love
I really chose for
is this how I scared of losing
I'll always be?

as useless as I am
when I can't even
make you feel
the way you should

As brave as I'm trying to be
not showing my real fear
of loosing you, my dearest
by a stupid choice of words

as I roll myself up in a ball
upon the floor
wishing that I
could die

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