Sometimes

Sometimes i hate myself
Sometimes i just want to die
Shoot myself right in the head
But I know that people would cry

Sometimes i love myself
Because i'm not good enough
Not for everyone else
I only disappoint me

I want to be a better person
But i seem to hold myself back
I need someone to lean on
But that person I seem to lack

I know my family loves me
But would it be better if i was gone?
I want to die a horrible death
But i think it would take too long

My "father" hates his daughter
And i hate him too
All he had to do was be there
But i guess that's too hard to do

I hate myself sometimes
I am no four-leaf clover
Maybe i would love myself
If only when I am sober