Who Am I Really ***

Feeling so alone
No one can help me now
Controlling my emotions
Like there's something I know how to do

Something inside of me
Is telling me to stop
But than there's something else
Telling me that I just can't

No one in this world
Knows exactly how I feel
No one in this world
can see through my fake identity

No one knows who I really am
Not even I could tell u that
All I know is smiling isn't easy
And faking one isn't fun

I'll fake my laugh
And fake my smile
I'll cry at night
And try to hide

I don't know how to do it
And I don't know what I'm doing
But one day sometime soon
Maybe I will finally understand
Where it really is that I belong

As soon as I find out who I am
And what I want to be
Maybe than I can take control
And learn to see the colors again

I don't understand who I am
Nobody else does either
Who do I go to for help
When it's me that's lost myself?!?

I can't talk to a councilor about this
She can't tell me who I am
Nobody knows me as well as me
But actually, I don't know me at all

Sometimes I just want to die
Theres nothing more I would rather do
Would that make my pain go away?
Is that really all I can do?

(C) Lucy Green