Sitting on this bench
Wondering and asking myself
How Long can I hold on
Without letting go
Without letting this sharp razor
Slicing against my skin
How Long can I hold on
To keep this thing
Out of my mind
How Long can I hold on
Keeping myself
So together
So tight
How Long can I hold on
Without these emotions running me
Without these horror dreams
Terrorizing me
How Long can I hold on
Without breaking down
Wishing to die
How Long can I hold on
Without another suicide attempt
Of holding this razor against me
Ready to face a new life
Up above
Above this harsh and horrible world
How Long can I hold on
Keeping this my little secret
Hiding these scars
Behind my over sized long sleeves
How Long can I hold on
Keeping me alive
To see another day
Go by
And to say, I've survived my life
When I die when its really my time
So
How Long can I hold on
Keeping this dream
Of living
So tell me
How Long?
