Gravity

~*~*~GRAVITY~*~*~

I don't want to fall away from you.
But in this dream gravity has taken control.
In my restless slumber the mind is raped by an onslaught of seclusion.
An overwhelming dream of a downward spiral into dark desolation, I plummet.

No Light, heat, No air to breathe.
Falling endlessly, rewinding in my mind over and over, Thoughts
Thoughts of things not achieved.
Thoughts of things that will never be.

Bracing myself in mid-descent
Scattered sparks from bleeding fingers grasping a lonesome wall.

My body halts.

With a deep breath and an illusion of hope,
Begins a long agonizing climb to you.
Scaling dark walls, making my hopeless way.
Muscles torn and bleeding wounds, I struggle upwards.

You promised you would never let me fall...Remember?
Those thoughts corrupted by the poisonous vapors of despair.
You have become a blur
This lack of promise in a sea of let down.

How can I be me if I only get belittled?
Would it not make sense for you to pretend?
Rather pretend than to...Than to cope with my heart.
How did you become everything to me?
You've raped my mind and deceived my will.

This troublesome climb must end.

A dark shadow latching onto my torn, frail hands, I am lifted from this loveless hole.
Struggling to keep it away, a strike to the face I receive.
A blank stare at you following a warm passionate kiss
Feeling complete my body moves towards you to be embraced.

Again with the deception...A swift palm to my chest
You hold me back with your filthy hands
They feel like razors...Razors of deceit.

Through the tracks of my tears you have defiled my emotions, once again
Your razors dismembered my heart cutting the strings of dream and expectation.
Pieces of broken love laying amongst contaminating hands,
You cast these feelings in this cesspool once called us.

Returning to the lonesome hole I ascended from, another plunge downward I have taken.
Relief, no regret, falling solo and free I call to you
the lack of reply is followed by a sigh of comfort.
A sense of wholeness I feel, because you are no where near.
This is more than a fall, but an escape.
This hunger for you is subsiding as my mind feasts upon the relieving thoughts that you are gone.

My eternal descent brings promise.
I don't want to fall away from you, but...
Gravity has taken hold.