Lonely ..

I have never felt so alone.
I have never not been able to talk to you.
You are being so evil.
You are not being true.

I have never not been able to trust you.
I have never not been able to leave you alone.
You make me not trust you.
You make it so I cannot call your heart my own.

I have never not been able to love you.
I have never not been able to smile.
I cannot love you because you hate me.
I cannot smile because you have been evil for more than just awhile.

I have never wanted to die.
I have never wanted to harm me.
You make me feel so sick and tired.
You make me want to leave you but you cannot see what you are doing to me.

I cannot speak.
You control me.
I cannot see.
You control me.
I cannot hear.
You control me.

I cannot love you.
You hate me.
I cannot trust me.
You leave me alone.
I cannot understand you.
You never listen.

I am so depressed
That you are not here.
I am so alone.
I live in fear.

I cannot see
As you cover my eyes.
You are always angry;
It does not take me by surprise.

I cannot hear
As you cover my ears.
You are so hurtful
When you drink those beers.

You never seem to stop
And think.
You leave me living
On the brink.

I love you so much
But I cannot take anymore.
I am going to leave you tonight;
I am walking out the door.

Goodbye.
Sweet dreams.
You had it coming
And yes, it is what it seems.

Goodbye to you
And you devilishness.
You are not longer divine;
You are a mess.

Goodbye!

© Emma Brown

Comments and votes appreciated.
Much love, Emma xox