I realize in life i make alto of mistakes, half in which i really do regret, i dint mean to be the way i am, sometimes i wish i could just be a little different, maybe it really is all my fault, maybe Ur just being niece in telling me its not, i honestly do not know what to do now, i really think i lost everything, including my ability to think rite, I'm not sure what i need to do, to get back things rite for myself, i know what i want, && i know what i cant have, sometimes i think i take things to bad, thats why i over react about alto of things, half in which i dint mean to, i cant make myself believe that i will be Kay, i tried && i tried but i just keep having memories in my head, honestly i wish i had none, so that i could just live my life, its to hard rite now to say I'm Kay, I'm sure i will be though this happens to everyone, yet i cant really say when, i just wish i was Kay rite now, i wish things were like last week, were i was just happy, i mean i really was, i take things for Grant, i always thought nothing could go wrong he'll always be their, now i wish i would of looked at the bigger picture, lived in the moment, said all the things i wanted to say, felt how i should of, not argued when their was nothing to argue over, && the truth is, I'm just learning to be me, yet i haven't come to find myself yet, I'm sure maybe one day i will, && if one day i happen to be happy again, i just hope its that same feeling
