Am i the reason you laugh or the reason you cry.

&& sometimes i wonder.. if this is rite? if i am supposed to hold on.. or if i am supposed to let go.. sometimes i am not sure exactly what to do, CuZ i still get jellos, i still get that weird feeling inside whenever i hear his name.. but i know i have to let go, & part of me already has.. i found someone better but i hate compareing.. i dont mean to do it.. i just do.. theirs nothing left for me and him..nothing at all.. we've gone are seperate ways.. weather he wants to admitt it or not.. we really have grown a p a r t.. and i never thought it would be like this.. ever..i never thought we would talk and not have anything to say.. cuz we have been threw more then most people think.. its hard to let go of someone thats been a p a r t of your life so long.. i've been learning everyday what it means to let go.. cuz it seems eachday i been able to say g/o/o/d/b/y/e.. but its like when i hear his name.. hear his voice anything.. i get that weird feeling all over again and i dont know what to do.. i know i shouldnt feel this way.. because i got someone new.. but its almost impossible to let go of someone fully..