Sadest poem

Its hard to listen to love songs, I miss you so much
I miss thinking about you, I try hard not to but... I push so much of my self away
I don't want to lose you, I never wanted to lose you... But its what you wanted
I had to let go, I don't matter you do. Be happy, Be with her, You need her, and you'll be happier then you could ever be with me.
WE never had any downs, till it ended
I did the right thing, I let you go, its what you wanted
But it hurts so much... I try not to cry, and I'm so strong, but it hurts so So much
I don't know how to find what I lost, and I try not to push it away
I wish I was with you, I wish I knew I would lose you, that I would let go some day
Instead of knowing if I had to I would
I'm sorry I cry, I'm sorry I feel this way and it makes you sad
Sorry for not being more to you, I'm sorry that I'm not enough, sorry that I feel so bad for doing the right thing.
Sorry for wasting time with you because now I feel like I could have done more
Sorry for being strong but not strong enough, and sorry for not feeling perfect anymore
Where saying I'm just me seems to mean less then nothing
I don't like feeling this way and I try I try so hard to keep it from you
I wasn't mad
I'm sorry for not being able to smile as big as I can
Sorry that what I do now seems so little, and I miss so so much
Sorry that I push away what we where so I can stop crying, sorry I found a way to do so, sorry that I feel so bad
I miss you, I want you I need you
I'm sorry that I cry, when I helped you to be so happy
And I'm sorry that doing the right thing, I tell my self over and over "I didn't win" and I cry
I'm sorry for saying sorry
And I'm sorry That I miss so much and it hurts to think about all our happy moments, all the things we've said
That saying us brings me to tears, because there is no more
I'm sorry I cant make you the happiest man in the world
And to god I am sorry that I'm not strong enough
Sorry for not doing more for you, no matter what I could have done more, so much more
I'm sorry I don't feel pretty, and not worthy of beautiful, and perfect hurts
I'm sorry that the same girl that saved you so much with her words, hurts you now
I'm sorry for not knowing what to do, and for not wanting to hurt
I'm sorry again for not being good enough, to my self, and for you

Iâ??ll miss saying I love you, and how I never thought that was the past, its not us, and it hurts
Telling you good night, or you calling me all the time
I can't call you my babe, because you're not mine, you'll never be mine
Though I'm not sorry for saving you from what I saw, that you didn't see me fall apart, you didn't hear me, and feel it
That I was losing my self, and I was going back to what you saved me from, and I didn't know if you could save me again
I'm not sorry for that
Sorry for when I say waky waky eggs and bake, it feels so wrong
Sorry that everything we did everything we said, hurts and feels wrong
To think about it, to want it, it feels wrong
Because your not mine, there is no us, and I don't have you anymore.