I am numb
mind frazzled
shutting down
jumping
hopping
smiling
crying
dieing
scared
for her
and her
and myself
wanting to talk
silently
deafening silent
screaming
no sound
deafening
to me
its not about what you think
its never about what they think
theres always more
i cant say
i cant talk
i want
i cant
i appreciate
positive remarks
but this is bigger
much bigger
above the remarks
making them pointless
it all seems pointless
the end
who knows
alone?
a parent?
single?
together?
it all meshes
all the problems
the problems you cant know
i cant say
hero to zero in 24 hours
amazing to nothing in a week
having a listener to being alone
i am alone
i am dramatic
i am emotional
i am sorry
i am___________
