I can't not cope

I can't shake these feelings.
My head feels like its going to explode.
The strain on my heart is unbearable
I feel so alone.
I just want to be held and kept safe from these feelings.
I don't want to feel like this anymore.
Scared and Hurting
but having to carry on
look after everyone else.
I don't want people to see me fall apart.
But it hurts
I hurt
But i can't have people pointing at me as not coping
I have to cope i have to carry on.