Bitter Sweet Memories

Every time i seal my eyes,
My mind takes where i loathe to be,
I wander back to my past life,
Where lives my blissful memories,

When i think of all those i loved,
One soul outshines the rest,
Your face, it haunts my nightmares,
Yet in a corrupted reality youre my best,

My bones ache with wanting,
My heart, it bleeds for your love,
My mind is tortured; thinking of you,
What you offer and all that you'd to give,

One of my first memories is with you,
Gazing at me fondly with your young trusting eyes,
Thinking of your warm caring gaze,
Takes me to a place i love- and despise,

Together we shared blissful times,
And with them, our bond grew,
You caressed my soul, kissed my cheek,
I aged too fast because of you,

You were the first to knock on my door,
Willingly, i let you in,
In my heart you had a special place,
You probably always will,

I blossomed from every whisper,
Thriving from every touch,
Shining with every tender kiss,
But our bond, it grew too much,

I trusted in you with all of my life,
So when you told that 'lie',
I shattered into a million pieces,
And with that my heart died,

My dear, i put you upon a pedestal,
Which you seemed to live up to,
When you broke my love and trust,
Never again would i love like i loved you,

Betrayed and broken hearted,
Only just on the mend,
You completed the puzzle of my heart,
But since then, things have changed,

I never expected to see you again,
So when i saw you that day,
Our eyes locked across a crowded room,
I knew you straight away,

My body filled with love and dread,
I wanted you to take me from my feet,
But we both fled,
Trapped in despair and defeat,

Even now i can't be 'over' you,
And what you did to me,
I will NEVER be free to love any others,
But i can't be with you - don't you see?

You and me can't be made for each other,
Though two halves once made whole...
You should move on, as i have tried to do,
Instead of digging a deeper hole.