In My Own Words.

I lay my head on my pillow
Tossing and turning
Trying to get to sleep
in this empty city apartment.

I hear syrons
car alarm going off
kids shouting on the street
in the middle of the night.

I turn on my music
try to distract myself of my thoughts.
I start to play a vidio in my mind
of my haunted past.

I cant sleep,
I need to talk to someone
so i do something I havent done
in many years

I get out of my bundled mess of blankets
and sit beside my bed.
I intwine my fingers together
and look up to the bare white ceiling.

I tell him I havent done this in a while,
I explained it is hard for me to admit there is a higher power
It was nice though
Just to finally get my feelings out

Even if there is knowone up there
It was good to vent
to explain my life
in my words

I got back into my bed
and realized
everything happpens for a reason
I got to stop regretting my past.
and start living my futer.

Emma