Redemption

Here I am now, lying on the floor.
You can look down at me.
While I hate every breath I take.

And you question what you thought you knew.
Bleeding. Crying. Screaming.
Clawing away at whatever is left.

Left of this decrepit shell.
You wonder why this is.
Ask how this happened.

Why I'm hurting like this.
Because I am hating at your whim.
Empty and hollowed to the core.

And again you wonder how this happened.
But you were the one who told me to search.
Look inside and find what I was missing.

When I never had it all along.
And I look back up to you.
While these infectious emotions seethe.

I wanted to tear myself apart.
And prove how wrong you were.
Because you said I was heartless.

But in the crimson cavity was no beating organ.
I was numb, torn at every stitch.
Already broken, useless like you said.

You were right. I've been dead all along.
I never was able to find what I craved most.
And this time, you can't save me.