All Because of me...

What have I done.....?
I made a mistake....I made him broken...
All because of me...
Of what have done...
it's my fault...
I've cried with all my heart...
Will no one listen to my cries....?
He listened when no one could...
I belong with someone else...
I truly love him...
But I only love him as a brother....
I still do......
He won't listen to me...
I know he won't...
I broke him to much already...
But I shattered with all the things he said....
I can except that he won't talk to me anymore but it hurts....
I cried for him...
Actually cried...
Instead of holding it in...
But did he see me like this...
I deserved it...
I have done so much harm to him...
Who else will I harm next...?
Should I deserve to be here......?
Should I die......?
I don't talk to him anymore because I think he doesn't want to talk to me...
I hear that I deserve it...
All the things that he said...
Am I...
Everyday I think....
Itâ??s my fault...
I broke him...
I hurt him...
Let me go away from here...
Away from this world...
I wonder if he is reading this...
He once told me "ill always is willing to forgive you.....Gabbi you donâ??t realize......I love you...I dream about you and everything....I forgive you.....always will too..."

But now I'm all and forgotten...
As I curl up to my little ball....
I wish I had poison to make me take...
I wish I had a dagger for me to stab myself...
I wish that someone beat me up even though I shed these tears....
That is falling to this moment...
Has he read my poem that I wrote for him a while back...
Guess not...

It's my fault...
I hurt him....
All because of me.....