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by RyanBroad Aug 23, 2006 category : Sadness, depression / about death
Why isn't happiness? A part of my life Why do I end up? Going under the knife The blood flows free The pain is relieving My life will not change Those thoughts were deceiving Where's my help? Who is my teacher? To teach me what's right And not be my preacher I continue to hurt With Substantial pain Taking over my body Forever it will reign I get told I'm loved That's hardly even true Love makes me happy That's not what they do I'm they're own flesh and blood Yet not one is my saviour He doesn't come close With his childish behaviour So I continue to bleed Seeing the fast flowing blood It makes it all clear That they never understood They don't know me They don't know how I feel It's more this time The pain is unreal My body weakens And my eye's big closure It's the only way to end My painful exposure My life's been nothing Nothing happy, nothing great He'll never understand Because he could never relate He'd always say he was sorry When he'd see he's crossed the line He'd always think that's enough As if that one word was fine I need more than that To repair my torn heart I hope this sinks in Because he ripped me apart Him not being there Him not doing what's right Him always being the one To leave me crying through the night I've been left to suffer Because he can't be my dad He hasn't earned the right And it still makes me sad He doesn't even try He can only sit and shout Lets see how he reacts When I'm down and out So as I go now As I lay down and die I hope he can see His love was a lie He can just this once Take the time to see That he did this He forced this on me It's the only way to show him The only way he'll care When he sees done I hope its pain he can't bare Just this once It's goodbye from me Goodbye from the failure A father? he wasn't to me.