Their are days when i feel like sh**.. days when i feel like i really do want to quit..i tell myself its okay.. i say i have no regrets.. but yet i find myself haveing some everyday.. nobody knows everything.. thats why i find out shitty things everyday.. i cant open up to any guy.. just because i am simply scared.. yeah its the truth.. but then their are once in a while those guys i feel like i could.. but i always find a reason to say fu** it.. &when people tell me that to stop looking back on the past.. i dont think they know what they are saying.. its funny how people can give me advice.. & not use it for their own.. & now that i do look back on everything i went threw & i had those friends that tried to help me i realize they were rite all along.. i just couldnt exsept those things then.. & the most thing i hate is when i have my heart set on someone or something.. theirs always a reason to think differently later.. people ask why its so hard to hold on.. i ask why is it so hard to keep a promiss? i\\\'ll never understand things the way they are.. & i\\\'ll never beable to let go of the things that hurt me the most.. i cant forget lies.. & i cant forget the way i felt..everyday i think about the same thing.. & i wonder how things could of would of been.. if i had done something differently..the truth is.. before you find someone..to love & be with.. you have to simply no who you are.. other wise.. you\\\'ll depend on them to figure you out, & then what if you loose them.. see now the thing i reget the most is not knowing who i was... i had so many fu**ed up things that i just didnt no how to handle them..i\\\'ll never regret looseing that one person.. cuz it just made me realize life.. && i now have a chance to see what its really like..
