How?(a short essay)

This is the moment that I'm very afraid would come into our relationship. This is the moment that I'm very scared of. This is the moment that I try to convince myself will not happen to us. This is one of the many reasons why I hate the word goodbye.
Once, I heard this sad song about a lost love. They never knew what happened or what could've went wrong for the love to end so soon, that's when I start to get scared. Thinking that song wouldn't be made if it did not happen. It must've happened to someone, and someone must've felt the pain, I just never thought that I'm the next one in line to feel the pain.
And pain, oh pain. How can somebody talk to me about how painful love can be when they don't have the slightest idea of what I've been through and the kind of pain you gave me. It is so excruciating that it feels like my heart is being grounded, that was during the start. But as the day's passes by, the wound got deeper and deeper, and the pain got stronger and stronger, then suddenly, I can't feel anything anymore.
I only have a little of everything before you came into my life, and with just a little strength. But when you came, I used all the strength that I have left to give you everything that I have, that when you left, I cannot squeeze out even a pinch of strength in me so I can use it to cry. How I would like to cry so I can bear out what's in my heart but tears won't flow. I don't know if It's because I got stronger or if It's because I got numb.
Moving on? Easier said than done. How will it be possible when everything around me reminds me of you? Everything I see, everything I taste, everything I smell, everything I hear. And how can you expect me to move on and have a new life like a new person when I don't have my heart anymore. I already gave it to you, remember? I'm now a girl without emotions, numb and without a heart. I'm just an empty person now.
Now, how do you expect me to move on and for what reason?