He wasn't suppose to die...

Tears falling as she tells me what has happened....
a scream of disbelief and a pain in my heart....
grasping for air i try and dry my eyes... finally i stop the tears and look around unsure of whats going on.

it still hasn't hit me but i am sure it soon will...
i just lost a friend... not just a friend but he was a part of my family not by blood but in the heart....

unsure of why it happened and i guess thats not important...
he was still so young and had so many years ahead of him...

this wasn't suppose to happen.
he was suppose to be here.
he was suppose to go to the river and hang out with us...
he was suppose to wrestle with us and give us advice.

although he is no longer here he is still in our hearts...
he can now watch over us and protect us...

one finally say before the end he will always be remember and always be with us forever...

in loving memories Keith smalling (bud) may he RIP!!!!