I've led a hard life
Full of abuse, yelling, pain
Filled with dishonesty, broken trust, and tears
You wonder why I don't trust you
Why I can't believe that you love me
I've been cheated on countless times
Lied to by people I thought loved me
Hurt by others that I truly cared for
Because of these painful events,
I've formed a hard shell around my heart
Built walls so that no one can enter
I'm frightened of getting hurt again
Scared of letting you into my future
And then being shot down like in the past
My heart is still torn
Sewn together by meager promises
But not yet healed
I'm afraid of you ripping the seams open
Leaving me to bleed to death
Though you say time and time again
That you would never cause me harm
I have trouble believing that
Because pain is not always caused intentionally
Should I try to trust you?
Open myself up wot your love
And the possibility of being scarred once more
I care for you
But I'm frightened
Do I dare try?
