Numb

Sadness and pain
Tempoarily non existant through the use of a bottle
It numbs the pain and clouds the sadness
Can you tell I'm a man?
WIth these scars on my wrist
Who prove I'll try it again
Try to die again
Try to end the suffering
End the sadness, loneliness, and darkness
With every day gone by I find another solution to my problems
Through a bottle
Temporary solutions
With the permamnent solution know
Yet not reached
The darkness engulfs me
And I watch as all I've love fade to black
The darkness grows and grabs a stronger hold every time
Where is God when I need him?
What cna religion help me?
It's supposed to help, but why do I still feel Forsaken and abandoned
The tales priest, pastors, and followers have spun me
Yield no fruit
The tales spun only suffocating me
Throwing me into desperation and futher complicating my situation
Will I use my permanent solution?

[It\'s a poem not my own feelings]