Sorry

So, this is my confession, I never really felt whole,
I found I turned a blind eye, what completes me is your soul,
It turns out I am sorry, for what ever may have passed,
I never have really told the truth, until this letter has past,

I cannot deny these feelings, as it turns, you never found out,
Despite them appearing in front of you eyes, thoughts that went about,
I started with love and friendship, but gradually it turned into hate,
You chose to love everyone but me; I was thus, arranging your date,

From then I chose to love again, it turns out you blinded my sight,
However from nowhere, a vision came, in a sad song on a rainy night,
I knew it was you to fill my void, this empty space growing inside me,
It turns you couldn't see it, through the months, you couldn't see,

As you merged closer, I pushed you away, since no one ever got inside that deep,
Though so many things I've said wrong, it's you and our friendship, I long to keep,
I'm missing your smile, your laughter, the way you looked at me,
To this date was many months ago, I was blind at that, now I see,

If I had just one minute with you, I swear one thing that will be true,
You can always try count on me, never once have I doubted you,
I blank many crucial things said, I never thought I'd see this through,
This love's been building up for ages, I finally recognize, one word which I knew,

If I had just one minute with you, I'd stare deep in your eyes,
Because then you'd be staring in mine, maybe then you might realize,
I'm sorry; I didn't mean it, it's far harder to say to a friend,
If there's one person who'd understand, staring in my eyes, I know I can depend,

I never really found my foot, I've never really found my way,
I can't wait to see you smile at me, the way I at you, each day,
But I know my path is winding, a kiss afloat, should I send?
Our friendship ever winding, I know that it could be at end,

I've fallen for someone, who I couldn't live without,
So many opportunities wasted, at that time I begin to doubt,
Holding my head in shame, I cant believe how sorry, how near,
This, the truth, from the depths of my heart, this apology is more than sincere,

I was the only one to know, after the following two years,
How much time presumed missing, and what caused this many tears,
I hid so many confused feelings; I never said that I loved your skin,
I only said the things I could, because something was hidden deep, within,