Pain to suffering

The pain that cut me in my heart
the suffering that tore my world apart
the laughter that put me down each day
the time i just let go away

the tears i spent
over waste less years
the pain in my head
from this life i dread

the years i spent locked in my room
but my life on pause and never resume

i hated the world i hated myself
i never trusted no body else

i cut my writs and cried for nights
i thought this pain was worth my life
i laughed in the dark
and remembered the days
when things always wet my way

i dropped the happiness and went through the pain
laughter and such i never regained

you all let me down
and just laughed at my frowns
called me emo
called me stupid
you never bothered to help

just watch me die
and let me cry
why the hell should you care
you were never really there