All these arguments, and all these fights
have caused all of my sleepless nights
times spent in front of this computer screen
wanting to open a bottle of Jim Bean
Just sit here, get fvcked up beyond belief
these drinks seem to be my only relief
Maybe, just maybe if I drink enough
my life won't be so hard and rough
even if I haven't been, I'm not the same
all you little kids think life's a game
well read this, it isn't you can't play
because you might turn into me one day
I'm the son all your mothers fear
I'm the kind, they don't want you near
I look like a pot-head, and sometimes I am
but even that, wasn't originally my plan
It just sorta happened over night
I woke up, and started with fright
I've seen what I am,it ain't good
if I could go back and change, I would
I'm starting to hate that man in the mirror
and with each glance,to death I'm nearer
I can't even look into my eyes anymore
shut the lid,swallow the key, lock the door
Lock away my spirit,so it can't leave
right now, it's even harder to breathe
just thinking of what I've become,
an addict, now I've turned into one
I hate myself more each day
kill myself, I very well may
it's a reality we all have to face
my life, don't give chase
If I do it, let my life end
just tell Becky my girlfriend
I'll love her,forever and ever
I was so glad we were together
right now I'm already almost dead
tonight I won't make it back to my bed
I'll slip, stumble and fall
and I won't even have the will to crawl
If I try to commit suicide
just remember me before I died
remember the Tripp who wasn't an addict
and maybe no one else will be faced
with my conflict
