I w a n t e d to feel something so real that it hurt almost to breath, it was the fact of knowing i can ethir try to make it work give it everything i have or let you say good bye knowing its going to hurt like hell. i didnt mean for things to get as bad as they have. its been a while i have to admit, && its amiazing how i can still remember Every worD you said, now its just a lie, but yet it sill means a little bit of something. i dont need you anymore, i\'m starting to find myself again, but that doesnt mean it doesnt hurt, i think its i just wanted you to be as miserable as i was, i wanted you to feel what i feel, but the truth is you wont, you cant get somebody to feel something they never felt in the first place. i come to realize that not everyone feels the same, sometimes they feel something then let it go, so its not hard for them, then theirs the people that want to give it All they got till they have nothing left in them to fight anymore, i think i am a little bit of both. i wont fight anymore, not for somebody who doesnt think its worth to fight for me. i\'m a little bit of scared i have to admit, i\'m scaredd to fall again, scared to love again. lately i been building a wall around me thats so confussing yet so easy to get threw. if it takes all this to get myself to not depend on other people to make me happy then i guess it was well worth it, i dont need anyone but myself, but sometimes i guess its just nice to know someone cares. && well i dont miss you anymore, atleast.. not like i used to.
