I...

I don't know what I want
I don't know what I need
I wouldn't tell you if I did
Cause I keep these things to me

I hide in my room
I cry in the dark
I dream the journey
On which I'll never embark

I wanna forget my problems
I want the rain to wash them away
I want to run to the desert
Instead of drowning in this liquid pain

I wanna hear music in sorrow
I wanna hear laughter in tears
I want purity to overwhelm the hurt
That's been building up inside of me for years.

I allow my pen to leak the anger overflowing
I shut my eyes to the hurt
I keep my emotions separate
But occasionally they mingle and flirt

I don't show my feelings
I hide them away
I cry while alone
I dream everyday
I want more
I allow less
I shut out shimmers of light
And keep the hollows of darkness