Echoing Memories

Here I am again,
Just another lame heart,
Sitting here writing my woes,
Before I tear this all apart.

We both know how we feel,
And we've let it all out too,
I'm the one holding back,
But we're still pulling through.

I just have all of these emotions,
And they're hitting me so fast,
Your sweet, gentle words,
What if they don't last?

I'm afraid of losing you,
Though we're not even together,
My fears and worries keep piling up,
But when you're around it's better.

That's just it though,
Lately, you're not even there,
I reach out desperately,
Just to find myself no where.

When you're not around,
It's like I'm forced to play pretend,
I make up my own, fake memories,
Just to keep me content.

Looking at my few, fading photos,
Always seem to help though,
It helps me remember that face,
And that smile you always show.

You seem happiest in them though,
When she's standing next to you,
Could I ever make you feel that way,
And have you smile because of me too?

And those eyes of yours,
They haunt me in my dreams,
The comfort I've found in them,
Is keeping me going, it seems.

Not to mention your voice,
How it echoes in my head,
I think of it everytime,
That my tears start to shed.

I can almost feel your arms around me,
Embracing me with comfort and strength,
Just to have that feeling once,
I'd go to any length.

I promise I'm not obsessed,
And I don't want to scare you,
I just have so many feelings in me,
And I'm worried too.

What if you're not thinking of me?
Do you even know how much I do?
Am I just part of some cruel game,
Another thing I have to get through?

I'm just rambling now,
As usual, over nothing,
But you're so deep in my heart,
I know it has to be something.

I guess what I've been trying to say,
Is that I'm feeling something completely new,
I'm not really sure how to say this,
But I think I've fallen in love with you.

**I wrote this quite awhile ago, and have been saving it. It's dedicated...and he knows who he is.**