My Addiction

You're my drug
My demon I can't face down
Without you I'm stuck
I find myself not wanting to be around
I'm chasing after you
Yet I'm running from you all the time
I don't want to need you
You're making me go out of my mind
You're the only company I want
But the only company I contain
Is misery and depression
Leaving in my soul a permanent stain
You're like a leach
Sucking the life right out of me
But at the same time
Without you I can't breathe
I start to think I'll never quit
But someday I must
I look down upon your cold existence
And my love for you starts to rust
Then all of the sudden
I can't see
You're the only one there
Then I hear you call me
It's like I can't think
Without you invading my thoughts
You've taken over me
As my body slowly begins to rot
I want you to leave
But you don't, you're still there
Am I ever going to change my ways
Either choice, you don't really care
I don't want to be hooked on you
I'm not sure how much longer I can go
Please just once more
There's something you should already know
I can deal with it
Just once more, and then I'm done with you
I need it just this once
Just to get me through
Then I'll be done
I swear
No wait just take it right now
I don't want it near
On second thought
Give it back
What am I doing, what am I saying
My mind beings to go black
This isn't who I am
How could I become an addict
This is my wall
And each scar is a brick
Addicted to the knife
Something I said I would never need
I said I wouldn't become this
And now for fun I make myself bleed
My addiction
Will someday kill me
Lying in a grave as a cutter
Dieing from an addiction that you couldn't see...