Not Like The Rest

So what If I'm not like the rest
Not close to what you call "the best"
But at least I'm being me
The only one I can be

You're the only one I love
The one I think and dream of
Sometimes I think
Without you, my heart would sink

I'm scared of the day
When you will go away
Who will wipe the tears from my eyes
Cause no one else can realize

What lies deep within
And came out as scars on my skin
What will become of my life?
I;m so scared I might go back to the knife

Whold will hold me tight
Just to let me know everything'll be alright
Theres no one left here
No one near

Cause nobody even seems to care
They just sit and stare
Like you're a freak show
But they don't even know

Don't know the shit you've been through
Or the shit you've had to do ( just to get by)
You try to find just one friend
But in the end it was all just pretend

Revenge and suicide thoughts fill your head
But you dont want to be dead
You have hope for better things to come
You just wish this pain would be done