Do you see the world,
through eyes of crystal suffering?
Does the bitter sweetness of life,
condem you to the deepest parts of yourself?
When black meets white,
and everything falls together,
turn on your light and cure my darkness,
for my darkness is my mind,
every thought drilling, peircing at my soul.
I dont know what to do.
I think of you and I wonder
what things could be like,
or could have been like.
I cant blame you for something
that you thought and felt was right.
I cant even blame myself
for things I cant control.
I dont know why I look for someone to blame,
maybe so I can ease the pain
of being rejected over, and over.
I battle with myself, I dont know who I am,
I feel like I have no personality.
I feel like no one genuinely cares about me.
I've been waiting so long for someone
to return the love I have put into this world,
all the times I waited for that someone,
just to be let down.
But if you have no personality,
you cant exist in someones mind,
you cant even exist to the people you care about less.
I am just a shadow,
no I'm not even that,
because if I could follow the one i love
untill death I would.
But I think whatever god governs us
doesnt want it to be easy for me.
I depend on you,
even though I know the only person
I can depend on is myself.
It shouldnt matter
if you dont have anything to talk about,
talking to me should be enough.
But like you said, you've changed.
Just remember,
when black meets white,
and things fall together,
turn on your light and cure my darkness.
