My loved ones always die...

For many years now
I have been really scared
To let anyone inside
Or show it if I cared

I don`t think I ever
Can tell you the reason why
Because then I will break down
And I will start to cry

I have been threw a lot
More then you `ll ever know
But I`ll never tell you
Because I `m scared you`ll want to go

You probably wouldn`t believe
All the things I told you
You wouldn`t know what to say
Or even what to do

But all the things I have been threw
Has made me what I am
This you have to understand
If you want to be my man

I may not always talk you you
Or show you how I feel
But that doesn`t mean
What we have isn`t real

I have opened up a lot
More then I usually do
Just because you are so sweet
And I really care for you

I always tend to loose
When it comes to love
People gets hurt
And sent to heaven above

But you have a place
Deep inside of me
I didn`t even know
How good it could be

When I look at you
Or gaze into your eyes
I don`t even think of
All the loved ones that died

But deep inside I know
That always happens to me
That`s why I`ll never show you everything
That`s just the way it has to be

Every time I see you
I don`t want to leave
I just want to stay
And tell you how I feel

But that I will never do
Because I am to scared
Something will happen to you
If I show you how much I cared