Hiding

My words twisted around
i feel like i've been drowned
soaked in my flood of tears
unleashing my greatest fears
i laid my heart out just for you
but you did the worst thing you could do
you turned it all around on me
how could this possibly be
that the happy girl i was
has changed for no reason, just because
what happened to the life i had
before everything spoiled and went bad
the things that brought me laughter
only bring me pain, this is the before and after
hiding away my thoughts
while my soul slowly rots
the heart i used to own
now lost with feelings never shown
ready for the end to come
how could i have been so dumb?
now i sit here quietly crying
knowing i'll always be lying
hiding my true self
with a razor on my bottom shelf
cutting away the pain
living my life in vain
solemnly waiting for time to go
knowing my blood will stop its flow
not bold enough to take my life
i sit alone with my bloody knife
but in the end i lose the game
with my picture in a shattered frame
with no one here to hear my screams
i drift to sleep to face my dreams.