Its written

Written in black are the letters i can not see. everything is black, except for me. the only light i still have is gray. the words i can read are still with me till this day.
the rain coming down splatters on me with nothing to hear. just drip drop on me, when im crying.
written in black is where i try to run from. written in black is on my wrists..one by one, i count all the cuts on my wrists.
written in gray are the words i know. written in gray is what i try to say but wont come out. i keep hope but hope dosnt keep me.
hope is the thing that makes me unhappy.
you said forever, but here i am. without you and my hands shake. the hands you used to hold are now nothing. the eyes you used to glaze into are gray.
the only thing gray that i can see.. is the words that you said..you would never leave me.