You Just Don't Know (Lil Girl's Life) Part 4

Im sorry I was too late
I feel this is the end
I hate myself now
You were my very best friend

I stare at your blank eyes
Knowing my made mistake
But I cant take it back
God decides your fate

You were just a little girl
None of this is fair
I feel as if you're next to me
Breathing the same air

Youre looking upon me now
But I just hang my head
I shouldve told sooner
There's nothing to be said

I ran into the back that day
Not knowing if I would find you
My heart seemed to stop beating
I think the cops did too

There you were upon the ground
With a bullet between your eyes
I fell to my knees at once
Overcome with my cries

I screamed your name again and again
Not beliving the truth
This just couldnt be happening
Not happening to you

Im standing above your casket
Hatred in my mind
You were just too damn young
You thought that there was time

You thought you could get out
Never leading to this
Life is just too short
And now it's obvious

You look beauitful
But your skin is so cold
I miss your cheerful eyes
Even when you hurt the most

I miss our talks we had
The nights you would cry
The nights I wanted to kill
For all the pain you felt inside

But I cant get past this
So please just let me know
That it was my fault you died
My fault that you had to go

I have to deal with the guilt
From me being 3 hours off time
Your daddy took that gun
And with the bullet took your life

Your mom and your dad
Both getting what they rated
A cell with 4 walls
Alone and isolated

I hope that your happy deal angel
In your version of life
Of how it shouldve been for you
Go live your life right

I'll always think of you
And keep you oh so close
Remember me always
As the girl who loved you most

And Now as I sit and stare
Into those dark empty eyes
I know your finally happy
Death eased your cries

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