Yes, I'm fine

Of course I'm OK
And you believe me
its not like you would want to hear about the motionless silent panic
A struggling gasp for air
Like an anguished back wards scream
That has an endless grasp on me
Chilling but so stinging sweet
Like I'm slowly cutting, slicing my flesh.
But it's so far within; if it were real I would die

You wouldn't listen about the sinking sting
Like a trickling whisper of smoke
Infects me through my mouth
Twisting and wrenching
Licking like cold fire at my lungs
That sharp panic, frantic dread
Being trapped underwater
The fear of knowing you cannot move
Then feel frenzy so fast and terrifying
Everything becomes slowed and stilled
But I cannot move for my glazed eyes ground me
The whole worlds ice-covered and muted
Blue tinted and muffled to my frozen ears
So sealed away from my loneliness
I'm so cold it hurts.
But it stabs in my chest where if it were real I would die
How sweet that would be
I'm heat-less, i feel nothing
I want to scream and tear at myself
But I cannot move
Yes, I'm fine