The forbidden one

I cant ignore these feelings
that ive gotten veiled inside
they want to escape
they refuse to hide
since the first time we met
these feelings have been strong
but i know i have to ignore it
because it would be so wrong
we are only friends
and i love it that way
but i want him to be mine
at the end of the day
i value our friendship
i value his trust
but i realise i love him
i know its not lust
he once said he liked me
a long time ago
i wanted to tell him
to let him know
but i told him i did too
but so long in the past
i was the one to change the convo
so fast
im scared if he realises
just how i feel
he will just break my heart
ill be unable to heal
for one day i will express these feelings
kept so well hidden
until then ill get up the courage
when its no longer fobidden