My unknown memory

(This poem is true i don't know what this memory is and i think i do but i could be wrong)

I have this memory
I need to get it out
It drives me insane
And i cant take it

I don't know what this memory is
But i know its in me
This memory hurts me
And its forbidden

weeping suicide
forbidden memory
don't know what it is
amongst my pain

Anyone can help
But i cant tell them
Only my loved one can know
no-one else must

Its inside me
I'm searching my pain
I think i know what it is
But if i tell some-one i could be wrong

I'm searching harder
Finding no other clues
I need it out soon
OR I WILL DIE!