What I once way
I can no longer be
Not because I'm being forced
But because that wasn't really me
I've decided to look past
The wrong, and find the right
When all is dark in the world
Help me find the light
I know I can do this
But I couldn't in the past
I'd cut away my pain
And hope my memories didn't last
But now I'm starting over
Getting something brand new
A brand new life
One that won't be blue
I once was hopeless and broken
Thinking my life was worthless
But now that I look over it
I see how much I would miss
I locked away my feelings
To never be found
Painting my art
Wishing to never be around
Using my body as the canvas
And a blade as my brush
Each scar that was added
Just a reminder of how my world was crushed
I would find myself in this rut
Every time I got mad or upset
Meeting all these happy people
Then wishing we never met
Sitting here each cold night
Crying my lonely tears
Writing of what I know
And my deepest darkest fears
I would find myself here
Over and over again
Hanging onto what I know
About to make another sin
But now it's different
Now I can put it down
Although I may still have tears
And I may still wear a frown
I know I can get through this
I know I won't cut
Because I'm finally free
I'm climbing out of my rut
It won't en-cage me anymore
I'm breaking free from my cell
I will no longer let this control me
I must do this for myself
When the temptation becomes too much
I know I have something better
Wipe away the tears and say
"I will no longer be labeled a cutter"
So when I find myself
Broken and hopeless on the floor
I will pick myself up
And know that I'm not like this anymore
I'm a brand new girl
I'm no longer hopeless and forgotten
I'm now fighting a fight
I know I can win...
