Letting Go is Hard

Letting go was hard
But not holding on was even harder
Letting you out of my heart
Seemed to make me fall even farther
I loved you, but now it's clear,
I love you even more
More than the day you kissed me
More than ever before
You were out of my mind
When you walked out of my life
But now that I've seen you again
It still cuts me like a knife
I'm not over you
And the fact that we are through
Because you promised me so many times
You would always stay true
Now that you are gone
I wish I still had you like I did
I am standing here with open arms
Willing to take anything you give
I spend my days in an endless state
Of dreams consisting of you
You tear apart my mind sometimes
And make it all askew
Your kiss still lingers on my lips
In the coldest depths of the night
I open my eyes in the darkness
Hoping to find your light
I don't know who I am now
Because I have permanently become weak
All odds are stacked against me right now
But if only I could make you see
It hurts because I had to watch
My whole life walk away
While I just stayed there standing
Because I knew nothing would make you stay
Letting go is hard
But not holding on is even harder
I'll never give my heart away again
You have made me smarter